spring wind

changed music.. now playing.. spring wind played by lang lang.. wonderful interpretation.. every phrase, i can imagine a picture and the pictures flashes past like a movie..

not long ago then did i begin to appreciate the different renditions by different artists... unlike pop music or songs with lyrics, these music provide a great range of imagination.. different pple play same tune but different pictures or moods are conveyed.. wonderful.. las time i thot conductor only give beat, quite useless.. but now i understand he is the essence, he gives meaning to the piece and touches the heart of the audience with his own interpretations..

oh well, i like this piece.. tis again a contemporary chinese piece.. i like debussy impressionistic style of composition and also the chinese folklore type of song.. this is a combination therefore i like it best!

i imagined, i was an explorer trying to conquer high mountains, the cold wind slashes my face like knives.. i m shivering in coldness and in fear.. i was beginning to lose hope.. just then a warm spring breeze mingled with the fragrance of flowers wafted up to me and caressed my cheeks... so dreamy, so sweet, so tender, i feel at ease.. i am smitten with love.. i wanted to capture it so that it accompanies me throughout my journey.. but tis transient, elusive and intangible.. it brushed past me and faded into the distance.. the peak was still as far, but i feel tis closer and more reachable.. cold wind could hurt me no more as the feeling of warmth always lingers in my mind.. but i know i will never meet spring wind again.. not in my lifetime.. for it has gone with the wind..

tis how i enjoy and appreciate music, not a conventional or professional way, but i really feel touched by it..

today, or yest, i begin to lose a bit of focus again... i think though i m emotional at times, i can control it well.. i only let it flow out through music.. haha.. in this way, no one will understand it! probably listeners will have a different understanding.. mum say i m quite absorbed into the music huh.. yep! i tried to have a string of pictures that continuously flashing b4 my eyes, and i try to describe them with my fingers.. sigh, but the pictures are still rather naive... childish stories..

oh well, feeling quite poignant today.. but tomorrow will be better.. as dawn breaks, i will start afresh in my journey..

☭ forge on! ☭ for great expectations i seek, i know there are sacrifices to be made.. but the joy in the process of seeking overrides the sacrifices.. i really shld not attempt at zero-sum games..

i am an indecisive person, or i am a cautious person in making decisions, but once decisions are made, i always stick to it.. (haha.. yet i still wrote this senseless entry even though i decided to isolate myself for one week..)

(如有雷同,纯属巧合。。) ☮