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*can skip first part, read after asterisk..

nvr understand human nature.. las time, i nvr do homework then i say the day b4 i do liao.. then my mum say u yesterday eat liao y u still eat today..

i used to take it as a joke but now no longer.. greediness is always insatiable.. there is no satiety centre in our brain to tell us that tis enough.. tis never enough.. yest i eat, today i will forget the feeling of fullness and want to eat again.. like man has leg, but he longs for wheels, then he got wheels, but he longs to have wings..

greediness may not be bad though.. if used on the good side.. that is the drive factor to push him forward..

life is oso like a rpg game.. not that i play a lot though.. i only have the patience to complete one game.. train train train.. fight big boss... amass money amass money amass money.. spend spend spend... train heal train.. fight bigger boss... fight bigger bigger boss.. fight biggest boss.. end game... one buy rpg main aim not to win boss but to aim to fight bigger and bigger boss.. life is goal oriented but most of the time tis spend on the process of achieving the goal... if one dunno how to enjoy the process, he will always be in a state of misery...

i used to be liddat, only like the sensation of winning the boss, but now i begin to enjoy the process of preparation and looking forward to the bigger boss...

life oso like music.. i hope tis as moto perpetuo as baroque, as simplistic and childlike like mozart classical music, as passionate as romatic era, as avant garde and creative as contempory piece.. oh yeah! tan dun is coming to town! got symphony sth to do with maps and paper percussion.. he is famous for using water and stones to make music.. really an avant garde.. but tics like very ex again... yeah haven finish my analogy, composers write passionate music to evoke the sensation of listeners but they themselves are the sanest creatures and the most rational creatures around.. despite beethoven and chopin messy haircut, in my belief, their pieces are creations of reasoning and not purely inspirational.. creativity is like spark and fire can only be sustained with gas that is reasoning.. chord progressions and repeated editing can only create masterpieces.. Now education is always creative creative creative, but creativity come out from fundamentals and accumulation of knowledge not thin air.. diligence and rational thinking should take hold of life.. not only inspiration and passion.. use big brain or cerebrum to think, not only cerebellum..

come across a psycho test using pic.. thought of doin, add some pics to make my blog less morbid.. tis still morbid nevertheless...

blogging makes me more morbid though.. i feel that i have like split personality and talk to myself more often.. or soliloquys.. like 'tg, this this this...' then the second voice come in.."no shld be tt tt tt" Is that normal? i nid to study psychiatry b4 i can find out..

*ok.. now as how a normal person shld blog i shall blog...

today very happy buy new clothes with mum.. but my leg too long and slim, like arachnid, then my waist to slim.. wah sianz.. most the trousers not long enuff to cover my skin and leg hair when sitting down.. ie got gap btw socks and pants.. aniwae got wad i wanted..
tiredness>>> happiness.. nid to learn from girls how to enjoy the process and not the goal!

tml very happy... go out with mum again.. she go enjoy brunch.. i go swim jacuzzi plus spa.. not that i rich but all are complimentary i.e. free.. then lunch will be sumptuous meal again.. haha tis good to be close with mum.. got good stuff to enjoy too.. but most impt family is really strongest pillar of support emotionally.. sth i realised over the yrs..